Haywire Emotion Poetry

Dark Passenger

2009-10-11T12:04:00.001+10:30

Alone in the dark,

I hear something stir,

I turn to see what,

But see only blur.

It cannot be seen,

And rarely it’s heard,

Its piercing silence,

That makes your gut churn.

The knowledge of nothing,

The power of greed,

Disadvantage of riches,

This lesson they need.

They are our dark passenger,

The wealthy and rich.

No value of money,

They’re making me twitch.

They are given the world,

With unlimited chances,

But when they fuck up,

Just one more of my stanzas.

Yesteryear Caught Fire

2009-10-11T12:03:00.001+10:30

'The past is gone' myself proclamed,
Whilst speaking to old me.
'I lit the fire, and it flared to,
And now our future's free!'

'A job well done' old me did say,
Whilst he smouldered himself.
'But I am done, i cannot come,
To this future mental health.'

'But why must we now part our ways?'
I asked my former self,
'It's just the way our fate was writ,
To convenience thyself.'

'But here and now? Why must that be?
It just does not seem fair!'
'You'll cope, new me, but me, myself,
I've taken all i'll bare.'

And so, the me's did seperate,
Old me was cast to flame,
But new me's still among us,
New me, he doth remain.

Surviving aint Living

2009-10-11T12:02:00.000+10:30

Sprawled on my back,
I look to the sky,
Memories float past,
And i wonder why?

I watch people slave,
To put bread on the table.
While the rich lounge around,
Bossing all who are able.

I watch those who are lazy,
Who dont accept change,
I watch those who are selfish,
Promote personal gain.

I watch those who are loveless,
Only care for posessions,
I pity those who regret,
Only follow obsessions.

So live today,
Take a chance,
Dont hold back!
Find romance.

This feelings mine,
So much relief,
Its better than,
My ex life of grief.

I wont back down,
I wont say goodbye,
This world's mine too,
Aint gonna let it die!

So hear my message,
As i stand strong,
For any who want to,
This is how you belong.

An Unfortunately True Armageddon

2009-10-11T12:01:00.001+10:30

The true armageddon,
we're shrouded in smoke,
a life without friendship,
a life without hope.

A life without hope,
where would we be?
An ominous wreck,
this dark bears no glee.

But now a light shines,
breaks these clouds apart,
penetrates fears,
and warms my heart.

Its name is love,
i sit and i stare,
it makes me better,
it makes me care.

So lets spread the word,
its no cult or religion,
its the meaning of all,
not a work of fiction.

I Love Her

2009-10-11T12:00:00.002+10:30

Searched all my life,
Now my search is done,
Think I've finally
Found my One.

Love you to bits,
And I swear its true,
I'd travel the world
Just to be with you.

You've replaced my air,
My food, my drink,
Without you,
I'd become extinct.

We've fallen so fast,
But our feelings are real,
With all my heart,
For you I do feel.

Words are an injustice,
They just cannot say
Anything close
To how i feel, babe.

You are my world,
And that is no lie,
I'll never want
To say goodbye.

So know its the truth,
Its my poem to you,
I love you Amber Christie,
We'll be together soon.

Unreal Reality

2009-10-11T12:00:00.001+10:30

This smile on my face,
Shall never be undone,
I've found another reason,
To continue to prolong.

The roads that I have travelled,
The sights that I have seen,
I've seen both sides of the fence,
But this sides grass is green!

I shall continue moving,
Unhindered my path be,
I've found another way to reach
My immortality!

Be kind to those who listen,
Be kind to those who shant,
It doesnt really matter,
Care less? Really cant!

So always wear a smile,
Even if life holds you down,
Theres always someone listening,
So cast aside your frown!

I Called Your Bluff

2009-10-11T11:50:00.000+10:30

You and i had always said that it would be ok,
Yet everytime i talk to you you turn your face in shame.

Am i so damn evil that you cannot stand to be around?
My jokes are bad, my demeanors worse, and my tempers world renowned.

I hate the world as it hates me, this fury burns my bones,
I look around, people conform like slaves or worker drones.

So now you hate me after you said that we'd still be friends?
I asked for time, that was my crime, now you wish for my end?

So here's my gift, my last goodbye, please do not cry for me,
This is the end, i called your bluff, our spirits have been freed.

To Whom it may Concern

2009-10-11T11:49:00.000+10:30

To whom it may concern,
Recipient been left blank,
Can anybody save our souls?
Is there anyone to thank?

This world is beat down, dying,
This blood is on our hands.
Can anybody free us?
Release us from these bans?

The bounty every person hunts,
The effort to be first.
People, like vampires,
Fortune is our blood thirst.

Does any hope remain around,
Is there light for us to see?
Or will we all be condemned to
Eternal misery?
As black as night can be.
Forever you and me,
Drowning in this sea,
Of depression, eternally,
With little hope of glee,
We fight to be set free,
Take immortality,
We slowly count to three,
And are left with bad memory,
And the past as our debris.

Ode to the Leaders

2009-10-11T11:48:00.001+10:30

Sword in hand,
Allies in tow,
You've got your army,
Now go man, go!

This isn't my world,
Its clearly yours.
Who am I to change,
What others doth applaud?

Government vs Government,
Belief vs Belief.
Who is wrong and who is right,
Based on who has less grief?

If I turned back all the clocks,
Would there be time enough?
To repair whats unfixable,
To remind what we forgot?

Injustice 2.0 - The Future of the Past

2009-10-11T11:47:00.000+10:30

The thirst in your soul that cannot be quenched,
The spark in your mind like fires been drenched.
As we humans age we forget to question,
We all just share our neurotic depression.

The hunger in your heart that cannot be fed,
The thought on your mind that remains unsaid.
The borders surrounding us start to fall,
Our world is revealed, consumed by us all.

As children of society we were told,
We're all individuals, we have evolved,
Yet i look at the past, and compare it to now,
Somethings not right, yet i cant touch on how.

Peers killing peers, people live on the street,
Most are treated like dirt under our feet.
How can this happen, and why must this be?
We call this utopia, but who are WE?

I've had it to here with political shit,
People dont think, they deserve to be hit!
I'll bury them all, as this heart in my chest,
Continues to beat, prolongs after the rest.

The Speaker to Lead

2009-10-11T11:46:00.003+10:30

I look at the world,
And what do i see?
People are damaged,
As broken as me.

So i'll be the speaker,
For the millions of mutes,
Your message be spoken,
The pain of this group.

I shall not hold back,
Our message must be strong,
Even when our world,
Seems terribly wrong.

We will pull through,
We're stronger than that,
Ourselves and each other,
Thou shalt not attack.

United we do stand,
Divided we shall fall,
And as the one with the courage to lead,
Behind, I shall not leave a soul.

So join with my army,
Together we'll win,
Find your voice, and scream it loud,
To be heard is not a sin!

I'm Ok

2009-10-11T11:46:00.001+10:30

My heart and soul have both been bled dry,
Collapsed on the ground I stare to the sky,
I scream but theres no one to answer my cry,
I'm void of emotion as i simply ask 'why?'

Long ago, in my era of dark,
It was believed that I'd lost my heart,
But now here I write, it rekindles my spark,
And I know that my writings leave a permanent mark.

But I still see injustice everywhere that I look,
Just the prologue would make a thousand page book,
But I think of my achievements and the thoughts my mind shook,
And the multiple meanings my rhymes undertook...

And I'm ok

Ascendance

2009-10-11T11:45:00.001+10:30

So here i am again,
its just the same ol'
yet everytime i write,
exposure of my soul.

i'm up to hear with learning,
i've done this all before!
i'm in need of ascendance,
i just need something more.

each time pencil scratches paper,
or fingers mash at keys,
i realise more and more that words
grant immortality.

you cannot kill a writer,
their words are ever more,
to try is just foolhardy,
and you'll find whats in store!

an artist is eternal,
i've Shakespeare as my proof,
John Donne, Emily Dickonson,
each poet stands aloof.

but i know i cant compare,
to greats, such as them,
so i'll plan ahead, and write some more,
as i improve, forever and again.

Lonely Cloud

2009-10-11T11:44:00.001+10:30

Lonely cloud, we are the same,
Two differences in a world so plain.
Lonely cloud, i share your pain,
In a world full of sunshine, we both bare the rain.

Lonely cloud, please dont die,
though you have every reason why.
Lonely cloud upon the sky,
I too am sad when things pass by.

Lonely cloud, why must this be,
Life of missed opportunity.
We are both hurt but neither flee,
Lonely cloud, are you me?

The Night(mare) Before Hell

2009-10-11T11:42:00.001+10:30

I'm misunderstood,
but my theories well known.
I'll always be me,
this resonates through my bones.

I'll forever be a rhymer,
words course through my blood,
and the truth thats in tow,
surges through like a flood.

I may not be smart,
IQ reads just over 11,
but this dumbshit knows the truth,
about earth, hell, and heaven.

I know of my flaws,
few too many screws loose,
but the only way to silence my soul,
abandon me now with my neck through this noose.

But even in my silencing,
another would take my place,
far too many would unite,
and join this poetic race.

So you see, i cannot stop,
even if i wanted too,
long as theres someone remaining,
in search of something true.

Stand Up! ---- respect to Alkaline trio, rise against, and metallica (song titles used)

2009-10-11T11:41:00.002+10:30

The darkness rises,
i'm caught between
the nothing of life
and deaths dark scream

Over and out,
is what should be said
as hideous rumours
of my death doth spread.

But rumours of my demise
have been greatly exaggerated,
as i humbly prove,
your all less than educated.

though i have seen death,
and admit its not pretty,
in actual fact, life
can be somewhat shitty.

did you find that line funny?
that would make you quite cruel,
as countless around die
following societies rules.

some rules really
dont make too much sense.
were those who created them,
overly dense?

so why do you all read me?
and steal from my knowledge?
go out and learn your own!
let your own knowledge florish!

if society fights you,
then why not fight back?
do not blend with the crowd,
and let your life fade to black...

Happy New Present

2009-10-11T11:41:00.001+10:30

So now its the present,
The big '09',
Its already improvement
And now i truly am fine!

The moment it started,
Twas a relief,
I can now let go,
of all 08's grief!

But it wasnt all bad,
It did bring some good-
Friends, Jobs, Opportunities,
Now i'm more understood!

Friends who had stabbed me,
I now do stab back.
Do not mess with he,
Whose soul is no longer black.

Last year was just like-
A drain to my soul,
But i'm better now,
Someone else can take that role.

So now i simply look ahead,
Leave the past in my wake,
09 is looking excellent,
This aint no time to break!

Ode to Nobody

2009-10-11T11:40:00.002+10:30

A legacy been left untold,
A chapter left unread,
Will i be just like Nobody,
After i am dead?

Life has taught me lessons,
I still have much to learn.
Trust, Forgive, Love, Revolt.
As these four flames must burn.

Everyone must die sometime,
Thats just part of life!
So many faithless with lack of time,
Up in arms, giving us strife!

We poets are a dying race,
I hear it time and time again,
Yet thoughts run through my head of late,
Are those among the crowds to blame?

Scream you message,
Let it known!
For then we shall see,
Who really is alone!

Poets are among hidden,
Stealth within the crowd,
Even now i know many,
Who hide while i stand loud!

So to those who i am talking to,
You all know who you are!
When you decide to let yourself known,
Make sure you leave a scar!

Mind of Pain

2009-10-11T11:40:00.001+10:30

Alone they sit in the confides,
The corner of the room,
They who are just cast aside,
To face impending doom.

But can we understand their world,
Today’s decaying race,
To talk would be to join their ranks,
We’d simply take their place.

To live you must cherish your life,
And always be yourself,
Do not change to suit others,
This illness known as health.

Normal is the toxic which,
Flows through too many’s veins,
United we must find a cure,
To free them from these reigns.

Normal seems to be boring,
Who would want to be
Just like all the other ones,
Who fear things said by me?

False Love

2009-10-11T11:39:00.004+10:30

These feelings i still hold for you,
These embers burning ever true,
My heart and soul, they beat as one,
To the rythmic beat of an evergoing drum.

All those times in which we laughed,
I miss them now, I always have,
I am hurt, i shall not lie,
But it is my fault that my heart has died.

I've always taught- Have no regret,
But now i feel a hypocryte,
My biggest fear has been confirmed,
I blew my chance, but will i learn?

My friends have praised me, told me i'm strong,
But inside my head i tell me they're wrong,
In actual fact i feel quite weird,
So powerless without you near.

To End my Loathing

2009-10-11T11:39:00.003+10:30

Do not underestimate
He who can’t be judged
And all those of low self-esteem
Alas, don’t hold a grudge.

I once had walked among us
My hate boiling inside
But now I have a reason
To rebuild my fallen pride.

Perhaps I’d undercut myself
‘less others overate me
Shards of light shine ever bright
And now I can see clearly.

I’m not the failure I thought I was
I’ve stumbled upon success
Friends, fans, even family
Helped clean my mental mess.

Rule of thumb- As one door closes
Another shall be kicked down
No more evil mental tsunami’s
For which my soul can drown.

I believe I have found happiness
No, not in the form of love
It comes from a deep self-respect
Not sent from up above.

Contradiction

2009-10-11T11:39:00.001+10:30

So many words remaining unsaid,
So many pages remaining unread,
I lay here on my bed, filled with my dread,
Thoughts run through my head, yet I’m mentally dead.

Consumed with fear I turn to run,
Tidal wave of emotion, I’m overcome,
I stun myself, hurt but numb,
Confused by what may happen to one.

To tell the truth would be a lie,
To shut my eyes would be to spy,
To stay uninvolved would be to pry,
And with each heartbeat, my soul shall die.

I know that this is contradiction,
A writers mind is my infliction,
Hurt but hopeful, inventing non-fiction,
These words just fit my description.

Remaining Unwritten

2009-10-11T11:38:00.002+10:30

The worthless paper
With scribbles upon
Will anyone finish it
After I’m gone?

Or shall the words stay unwritten?
Unsaid and unread
None to continue my legacy
After I’m dead.

I do not seek publishment
But I don’t fear it neither
Underground or known
I’m happy with either.

For I don’t write for fame
Nor fans or for monies
I do it for myself
Because it puts the breaks on my worries.

I write out my thoughts
Love, fears, desires
Yet I still feel empty
In spite of these fires.

I look around desperately
I need motivation
I need inspiration
Not self mutilation.

I’m unlike my kin
Unlike all of my peers
I must be unique
And that fills me with fears.

Fears of violence
Fears of rage
I need to break the normal
Smash out of this cage.

For my individuality
Comes at a steep price
All those around me
They think I’m not right.

Like something is wrong
I’ve got a disease
And all shall avoid me
Like crims avoid police.

But do not fear me
I am but a friend
The only one who’ll remain loyal
Until the bitter end.

I’ve said it before
I’ll say it again
I’ve never had love
Yet I still feel its pain.

The pain that remains
After a long love has ended
“Just leave me alone
I don’t need to be mended!”

I just punch holes
In my bedroom wall
As I start to fear
My own dark soul.

And I lay in the dark
A blank stare on my face
As I wonder “where in this world
Is MY place?”

I don’t need advice
I’ll just have a beer
But lo and behold
In seeps more fear.

Would someone sap
This evil from me
So I can live life
Peacefully?

I need to lose
This misery
To find my own
Serenity.

But will that be enough?
Will that let me survive?
Or am I already
Slammed shut in this vice?

All I need is a word
Just give me a line
I’ll search my own memory banks
And make my own rhyme.

And so I’ll hurt
And shed a tear
For my world is a void
When she is not here.

To love what we cannot attain
Is simply human nature
So why then, even with this knowledge
Do I feel such a failure?

But that's over now
I’ve given her up
And with somebody else
I must retry my luck.

So back to the beginning
Back to where it begun
Will this story continue
After I’ve passed on?

Fighting The Norm Without So Much As Punk Rock

2009-10-11T11:38:00.001+10:30

The sirens scream danger,
Through our everyday lives,
Telling us what’s deemed
Normal and right.
Should we even listen,
To their metallic waring,
Or should it be ‘Normal’
Which us un-norms are goring?
I’ve waited in shadows,
Violent thoughts in my head,
While all those around me,
Just see me as dead.
I’ve defied all who’ve told me,
That to live I must change,
But that is not living,
It’s existing in chains.
I’ll chose my own path,
Carve my plans in the bones,
I shall never give up,
‘til I find a place called ‘home’.
But is even that normal?
Will it be to me?
Or is it just another shelter,
Of self mental brutality?
And so this loop shall continue,
‘til the day I shall die,
But even in death,
There shall be no goodbye.

Take These Words to Build a Future!

2009-10-11T11:37:00.004+10:30

What I strive for,
Poetry in motion,
But my efforts are naught,
Just drops in the ocean.

I’ll make a stand once,
I’ll even make it twice,
But if I’m not being heard,
Do not expect thrice.

I know I have friends,
I’ve even found fans,
But can anyone hear,
The messages I spam?

I’d sit at my laptop,
And I’d type for days,
Until the message I tell,
Is more than just haze.

Can anyone hear me?
Is somebody there?
Or are the things that I shout,
Secrets for the air?

The things that I say,
Fall upon deaf ears,
That truly would be,
The sum of my fears.

So hear what I say!
Hell, even join in!
‘Cause at the end of it all,
My message shall win!

Shards of a Poet

2009-10-11T11:37:00.003+10:30

I lay here all broken,
Just damaged goods.
My soul has been splintered,
Just pieces of wood.
I call for your help,
But my cries are in vain.
I try to push on,
But find nothing but strain.
I get to my feet,
But my legs feel like lead.
If my psyche was repaired,
I'd be mentally dead.
The winds gust a current,
I press on through this storm.
I grip my chest searching,
For the heart once was warmed.
But alone here I stand,
Just self-pity remains.
And this storm bellows on,
As i fend off the rains.
When i'm dead and gone,
What will they say?
Am i just another,
Declining their aid?
When my funeral's held,
And my casket is buried...
What will remain,
Of the others i've carried?
Is love but a theory?
Is there truth in its midst?
Or are all those who follow,
Just simply gits?
I know my own feelings,
But i do not know others...
And as another door closes,
I involentarily shudder.

5am

2009-10-11T11:37:00.001+10:30

5am,
Nothing to do.
5am,
My thoughts turn to you.
5am,
Should be asleep...
But how can I,
When the futures so bleak?

5am,
Its early morning.
5am,
So damn boring.
5am,
So dark outside.
Fumbling for my keys,
I wanna go for a drive.

5am,
I dont sleep anymore.
5am,
Cause I find it a bore.
5am,
I know I should be snoring...
But how can I,
When my future is dawning?

5am,
Nothing but silence.
5am,
As i search for the signs of,
Anything remaining inside my soul...
But nothing is there...
Just a dark, void-like hole...

Escaping Heartbreak

2009-10-11T11:36:00.002+10:30

'tis better to have loved and loss,
than never loved at all.
but seldom do this words seem true,
when so bad hurts my soul.

should heartbreak be existant,
for better or for worse?
worse fates many have suffered,
to the back of a hearse.

if loves a piece of fiction,
i'll drown out all the lies.
the truth that must be spoken,
throughout ex-lovers cries.

people in and out of love,
how easy must it be?
if loveless leads down to their deaths,--------
take immortality!

My Long Awaited Demise has been Temporarily Postponed

2009-10-11T11:36:00.001+10:30

Suicide would be easy,
The coward's way out.
My whole life i took shelter,
Avoiding this bout.
But now here i stand,
I can run, but i dont.
Seen that long road before,
Where it ends, i wont.
Should i die as a hermit?
A life without love?
Or should i get to my feet?
Move on, find anoth'?
I'm just scared and alone,
Really quite weak,
And as i call out for help,
Not my voice, but a squeak.
I looked for love once,
But all i found was a friend.
But i know this friendship,
Will last till the end.
I'll never forget all-
The good times we shared
Or how much i did love her,
How much i did care.
Shall i call it a waste?
Ney, it's just life.
Just one more experience,
One of lifes smaller strifes.
They say love is eternal,
And also quite blind.
If i search once again,
What fate will i find?
Fate, eh?
What a strange thing it is,
So many friends who are girls,
Yet not one to kiss.
But i'm out of rhymes now,
Oh wait, but one more,
In relation to love,
I've reopened it's door

Non-Special Sons

2009-10-11T11:35:00.002+10:30

This one bullet,
Could end it all.
This one split second,
Could be my fall.
Loaded and ready,
I hear its call.
If trigger was pulled,
Stained, would be this wall.

The wall that borders,
Truth and lies.
Bricks built from,
Hypocryte's lives.
I stand before it,
Hearing the cries,
The unfortunate innocent,
Who 'had to' die.

The border stands strong,
Reinforced by my guilt.
But now here i stand,
With my hand to the hilt
Of this weapon i hold
Many's blood it has spilt,
And as i look back,
I see my innocence wilt.

I know i have wronged,
I have one regret.
Once I have remembered,
I've cried, how i wept.

But after all
Is said and done,
I aint special,
I aint 'the One',
I'm just like all
The other none's,
But now we stand-
Non-special sons.

To Kill a BloggingBird

2009-10-11T11:35:00.001+10:30

my heart is now bled dry,
and i look toward the sky,
i'll always reminisce,
all the good times that i miss,
but i know that someday i,
like those who dont defy,
will find one last thing to care about,
once again.

Blind to this Impending Fate

2009-10-11T11:33:00.002+10:30

As I look back on my life,
Not only what I've hated,
Parts of memory still compressed,
My memory banks have faded...

Am I myself a hypocryte?
Do I not hate the haters?
Sparks of anger scorch my soul,
They're lives, there for the takers?

Death and destruction reign above all,
Peace, where hast thou gone?
Future generations are who I feel sorry for,
Those who are yet to be born.

People I know who's blood has been spilt,
People I know who have died,
People I knew who've had funerals held,
But people they knew who have cried...

I know this, in fact that life isnt long,
So why do people cut it short?
When war occurs, Death is in tow,
The worlds only true blood sport...

I know as a fact that life isnt great,
When you live on the edge of a knife.
Is this a reality?
Is this, in fact, my life?

Consumer of War

2009-10-11T11:33:00.001+10:30

Barcoded Warheads,
Stacked upon the shelves.
Result will be tragic,
Earth is one with Hell.

For a Girl

2009-10-11T11:15:00.000+10:30

she is perfect,
i am but dirt.
but her feelings,
i'd never hurt.

we had our friendship,
that was enough.
but now i feel,
i'm falling in love.

provide you with everything,
you know that i would.
live the good life together,
you know that we could.